Immanent Resolve?

Last Tuesday I left pretty late to make it from Chicago to the U of Woo. I stopped off in Aurora to fill up the gas tank and add some oil as I usually do. When I left from the gas station the car filled up with smoke and I had a 2 block trail of smoke behind me. Ol' Bessie finally gave up. Figures she'd do so as I just got done putting $35 worth of fuel in her.

So she's sitting in a well lit area and I called the business to let them know that it'll be a few days before I can get to her. Aurora is at least an hour from my Mom's house and about that far from the city. I just need to get the info to drop her off at the junkyard. She was a good car and a great investment. I bought her 8 years ago for $250 and I got more than my money's worth out of her.

So now I'm without a car and to get back an forth from the city to my Mom's house I'll be using Amtrak. The closest station is Mendota, IL which is about an hour from here. Then it's back to the rat race of public transportation, which I haven't done in about 8 years. I'm not looking forward to it.

This also brings about the thinking of how much of a pain in the ass it is to couch surf and do so much traveling for a job that I'm burnt out on. It's not that I don't like the job I have, it just gets really boring and aggravating after six years. So without a car it's making it easier to push up the date that I retire from the doorway (again). Not that I'd be against bumping up to a different position.

I was looking into a bar that was for sale in a small town near here. It had a back room for bands, a full kitchen, an attached apartment, full bar and all the appliances for $60k. A steal by any means. Of course as soon as I started looking up the info it was sold. So there goes that idea.

So now the decision has to made very soon. Do I finally leave or do I just give in and stay complacent? Granted, all it'd take for things to be different is a little change whether professionally or personally. But nothing has changed in six years. If I stay I can be comfortable. I have a job that pays well (if I don't take any nights off for shows or other things), I can afford an apartment, I have friends an family nearby and I'll be able to catch up on other things. If i decide to go then I have a job lined up, a place to stay until I'm on my feet and a friend. Either way seems to be weighing out the same.

I've been told to just go and see how it works out. "Dude.. you can always come back. You'll always have a job here." It could be that simple if it wasn't so far away. Figuring it'll cost about a grand to move (car rental, food, lodging), it'll cost about that much to move back. Not really a small cost. I've been through all the different thoughts about going there for a while then moving and so on. I'm not a fan of that. It's either go or don't. So the thoughts continue.

So on that note, I'll be heading to the Amtrak station in about an hour to head to the city.

I get to babysit a ton of people this weekend who want to think they are Irish.

hip hip hooray...